Trust His Heart

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper u & not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future. -Jer 29:11

For the hurt and the broken it may seem as if the world is hating you for whatever reason that you feel bombarded by negative vibes on all sides. We become weary, stressed, tired, discouraged, hopeless and empty. We try to drown ourselves with alcohol or parties or any sort of exciting and exhilerating activity just to forget what we feel. And one thing more, we most of the times ask God "why?" and sometimes hate Him for whatever we are feeling.

As humans we forget one thing, God has planned everything on earth and he knows how our life story should be told. Though we try to do things our way, it will always end up with us on bended knees seeking God's help when we fail. For some people with too much pride and ego this might be something they'd never do basically because they don't see humility as an answer to their failures... but do remember this one thing: God loves everyone of us, sinner or saint, rich or poor, strong or weak, meek or boastful. He has planned your life, like it or not. Every mistake you make, every achievement you take, and even the smallest detail of you is planned by God.

"There is a time for everything...." Ecc. 3:1-14

Though we live in a fast-paced life, we must never forget to slow down. Since God has designed us for a certain purpose, God has also given us a timeline for every activity. We don't see it, but if we learn to listen and be sensitive with God's signs to us we can follow His timeline.

I remember reading Paulo Coelho's "The Alchemist" where this yung lad follows signs throughout his journey. He takes every direction by faith only to find out that he has searched all over the place just to end up at the same place he began his journey. Some of us may think, that's quite stupid! But it's like our very own life story... wherever you may be right now does not really matter. What matters is how we ended up there, and how we journeyed our way to that spot. We really can't tell where we're headed but we can always choose how to get there. And if we are like that lad on the story, and we let God lead us, we'll get there the soonest... because He has a timeline for everything!

We may be mourning, weeping, or even crying right now... why don't you give God a shot? Let Him guide you through these rough times. It is never wrong to trust His heart, because our Father knows best. Someday, you'll find yourself laughing about these hard times and you'll see, He really is greater than what you are experiencing. :) learn to walk by faith, and let God's timing be your timeline.

What Makes Me Smile?

I may not be in the right position or at the right moment to say this but many people tell me I don't really look like someone left me for someone else and I wondered... don't I really look like that? Here's a few more things they said:
> It does not seem to bother you as if nothing really happened.
> You talk about it as if it was several months ago.
> It didn't seem to bother you even if the odds were against you.
> It was unfair but you don't appear so bitter

My answer is simple... I have a great God.

My faith and my life was shaken, my heart was smashed into pieces and I actually felt pain and sorrow come to me as a tidal wave. It came during the time that I was ready to hold on to that one person. It came without warnings. It came with no reason visible to my point of view. I was  torn into pieces, broken. But I wasn't left there to bleed to death...my God was there to catch me.

As days passed, he taught me so much. Although I feel the pain is still here, scars and bruises not completely healed, my new heart is working well. It was like I had a transplant, with a few stages where my system was looking for the old one, but after all those it's beating now. It still hurts though, and only God can tell me if it's already healed. Until such time that everything in my life is going steady again, I'll try to learn to walk by faith. Living up not for the world but for the God who saved me from falling. I still miss him though, and sometimes I wish for a second chance. I know only God can give that, and only God can allow that. Because now, I don't want to cry anymore... my tears weren't enough to strip away my pain and I'll just end up a bitter bitch if i let my pain get the most of me. I know someday someone will make me his world and hold my hand until I meet God face to face. Until that time, I'll just do my best to walk in the light of God, hopefully never to be lost again.

I smile not because I found a new person to love, but I found my faith the best thing I have. I smile because I know God is guiding me through my life. I'll still receive a few more bruises along the way, but I know as long as God's there I shouldn't be lonely again. :)

Many are the woes of the wicked, but the LORD's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in him. -Psalm 32:10

Deep Thoughts for the Heartbroken

It's funny how life can flip 180 degrees in a matter of days. Honestly, looking at the things that lead us to where we are right now, no one can predict this can happen.

I've been looking at emails, messages and even events a week before, and no one can say this was to happen. Honestly I do not believe that there's someone else, because my instinct says so. And as much as I know you, you'll never fall in love with someone that easy. Although, I'll give you the credit of setting me free, because I know you have your reasons. Whatever the truth is, I hope I'll figure it out in the future... It's easier to understand things when you know what happened. I also am aware that whatever your reason was, it was something very important that I shouldn't stand in your way.

I've been praying so hard since that day we decided to break up, I know only God knows what's in your heart. I just need to trust Him now, because I don't know what's happening. I know that in my heart you'll always have a place...but I won't put my hopes high because I don't know if you'd be back. But if you do, and if God allows a second chance for us, I know we've got so much catching up to do... better yet, start new. It wasn't easy for both of us. So when that time comes I'm sure we both need to learn from our mistakes and forget the past... just move forward.

Funny that when I watched "One More Chance" of Bea Alonzo and John Lloyd Cruz I never imagined this to be a part of my life. It was even funnier finding myself saying the exact lines "Sana ako nalang... Ako nalang ulit.." and "you had me at my best and yet you chose to break my heart." and yes, it was indeed something i never imagined. I just wish you well, hoping I'd see you somewhere in the future. And if that one more chance would come, I know I have to be ready for it. I'm sure when that time comes my heart will be ready for you. :) Until then, I'll just look up at God. :)