We simply can't say too much when we never even fought for it.
We simply can never say anything too mean against each other,
because we never were against each other to start with
We can't shake off what we feel for each other that easy
simply because we chose each other.
Unfortunately, things changed...
You had a change of heart, I had to react to it
We had to end things basically because you weren't sure if you can fight with me anymore
I'd rather face things individually than to hurt myself more.
It was the only way I know
Because no matter how hard I'd fight for it if you're not with me to fight it's not worth any effort at all
Though I forgive you, but i guess it's game over.
I won't lie that I cried
I won't lie that I wanted to run far far away from here
I wanted to feel alive again
I wanted to understand things
I wanted to see what you feel and feel what you don't want me to feel
It was all before I cried out to God.
I only had one thing left with me, my faith...something I have long forgotten
I can hardly feel my own self at that moment, it was useless to try
I was living each day because I had to, I'm alive so I didn't have much choice.
It was just like when you left me with no choice but to move on,
No other way but to let you go
No alternative but to act as if nothing happened and that we just fell apart
4 years of so much love and passion for each other
That when the tide hit us, it was like nothing was left
4 years of memories in exchange of that one blow
Funny
That all I knew about you was different from what just happened.
As if those 5 precious words never meant anything
That it was all just a feeling, and it never was a commitment
Though I get you, and I understand that I have just disappointed myself with how much I know you.
My faith has showed me so much,
That life was valuable
That I have a purpose that eventhough I couldn't understand it I still have to live up for it
That eventhough I still don't know what I'm supposed to do,
The only thing I could actually do is just smile and let God's love flow through me.
To you it may sound stupid and foolish
But it's better than to find love again and then end up apart with that someone again
I'm sure love will find it's way to me,
And when it does I pray it's meant for me.
That love that I can fight for until my dying day
That kind of love that never disappoints you
That kind of love that even if it hurts, it never walks away
That kind of love that I can grow with
That kind of love that never gets tired
Just like the kind of love you once promised but never kept.
That love that's meant to last
That unconditional love.
If ever you find yourself coming back to that day, I hope you'd realize what your heart really wants
Because I just did
And if you find "us" within your feelings I can only assure you one thing
We were never total strangers, because we were a part of each other once in our life.
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